8.13.2012

Ready to Fly

Turquoise and Yellow Wings WIP2
Watercolor feathers, awaiting more delicate details
denim and dirt heart WIP wings
These are wings for this "denim and dirt" heart collage
Turquoise and Yellow Wings WIP1
I haven't worked in my watercolors for a while; it's taking some practice to get used to them again!
Turquoise and Yellow Wings WIP3
The first-draft feathers. Decided they won't work for the final piece, but I can't wait to cut them up for a collage!

My mama-heart has been crowding out my creative-heart lately and I'm finding it difficult to shift my focus. Usually I thrive on the chaos that comes with being a work-at-home artist-mama. These last three--almost four (!)--years I have been squeezing it in during naptimes and snacktimes, slowly taking baby-steps in developing a body of work, defining my style, filling and fine-tuning my Etsy shop, building a blog...all the while knowing that none of it truly could take off yet because it wasn't quite yet "my time." 

Rest is probably one of the topics I have revisited most often since I started this blog a year and a half ago (you can read some of those posts herehere, here and here). It seems I am always wishing to speed ahead to the finish line instead of enjoying each leg of the race--or, even better, to realize that the race is a myth and that the beautiful journey is the thing that matters--that the story itself is the goal

Well, for once, I feel like I'm not trying to jump ahead.

I love this blog, I love my reader-friends and I love my work. But my little girls are both starting part-time kindergarten in just a few weeks (in Germany, this is sort of like preschool, or maybe more like playschool). A new chapter is about to begin for our little family as the two youngest members test their tiny wings for the very first time. So I am savoring these last few "pages" of summer as much as I can.

My heart is aching just a little because I know this is the first of many "leavings" to come. (Although my three-year old would tilt her head at me right now and ask, "Are you cryin' again, Mama? We will always be with you--in your heart and still living in this apartment too." Ha! And cue even more tears!) My heart is also soaring because soon I will get to spread my own wings a bit more and have time--actual hours-on-end--to work and to discover where this creative life is going to take me! I have lots of plans whirling around in my head, gathering strength like feathers to fill out my wings and lift me in flight. 

And I'm so grateful to all of you out there who are joining me on this adventure; can't wait to write more of the story!

(If you'd like a bit more of the story right now, head on over to the Bettina's Treehouse Blog where Beth Laky featured me in an "Artist Spotlight" interview--check it out here. Thanks Beth! And be sure to visit her shop too, where 25% of her proceeds support LiquidWater.com and the drilling of clean water wells in developing countries. What a beautiful thing.)

51 comments:

  1. Thanks Sadee! I needed this word today, reminding me I am waiting for "my time" in certain situations as well, and I need to enjoy the waiting. Love this art too - can't wait to see it when it's done!

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    1. Thank you, Beth! And thanks so much for having me on your blog!

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  2. I know well the many "goodbyes" that come along the way. And I know there'll be more to come. But with it come changes in the relationship that deepen it more. I'm so excited for you to be able to have this time and to see where it takes you!!

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    1. Thanks for your encouragement, Catherine! I'm excited to have this time too and also excited for the relationships to deepen as well. It's win-win however you look at it, right? :)

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  3. What a lovely post. I'm not a mum so can only imagine the bittersweet feelings you have as your little girls start nursery school but you described it so well in your post that I could imagine it a little! You won't know yourself when you have all this free time to start focussing on you and your art! By the way, lovely new photo - you've changed your hair!

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    1. Thanks, Nicola! I know, it was about time to change that photo--it was quite outdated! But now I want to change my hair yet again, but that means I will have to change the photo again ;).

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  4. Beautiful painting with softness. Probably how you are feeling at the moment - a tenderness towards your offspring as they make great leaps in growing up!

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    1. You are so right about the tenderness! Wonderful observation and something I had not even thought of. Thanks!

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  5. Love these feathers, can hardly wait to see how you finish them. And the mini goodbyes do not get easier, as my baby started school this year. My children just accept my tears...often! Enjoy this time, soak it up.

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    1. Thank you! I'm doing my best to soak it up and pray you continue to do the same!

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  6. Your wing painting could 'stand alone' as a wonderful piece of art work ~ hard to 'let go' of our children yet as Gibran writes in The Prophet 'children come through us not for us' ~ you will be spreading your wings as well soon ~ as well as enjoying your children's next stage ~ (A Creative Harbor)

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    1. Thank you so much for sharing that quote, Carol. "Children come through us not for us." That is so true, isn't it. I would be selfish to hold on to them past the time I was meant to, because then they wouldn't develop wimgs of their own!

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  7. It is hard to fit it in when motherhood calls! But so imprtant to take that creative time for yourself. Bravo! Happy PPF!

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    1. Thank you, Petrea! You are so right! But I feel like taking creative time for myself helps me to be a calmer and better mama. :)

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  8. Pretty feathers. Take time to rest and reflect...something we all need to remember! Mothering is a difficult job.

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    1. Rest and reflection helps so much in parenting, don't you think Nancy? Thank you!

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  9. Your work is so beautiful. I love your reflections on motherhood. Your girls will enjoy school, I bet, and you will relish those hours for yourself, but I agree that those summer days with your young children are such a gift. I teach part-time during the school year, but usually have the summers off to be with my kids. Of course it changes as they get older, but they are wonderful days.

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    1. Thank you, Debbie! Hope you are enjoying the last bit of summer with your kids too!

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  10. Beautiful work full of tenderness. Enjoy your babes while they are young. Happy PPF, Annette x

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    1. Thank you, Annette! My heart certainly is feeling extra-tender toward my girls right now.

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  11. Life is in the journey. :) Even happy changes take some getting used to... the kiddos grow up so fast. Love this post and your feathers are really gorgeous!

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    1. Happy changes are still changes, aren't they? I think it's so good to give ourselves a bit of grace to adapt. Thanks for the reminder, Heather!

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  12. Your art is beautiful! I've been having my own growing pains and now with kids in school, I almost don't know what to do with myself :)Enjoy the journey friend.

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    1. I hope you get some fun ideas about "what to do with yourself," Alecia! I know I will soon feel that way too, so I'm trying to make a plan beforehand so that I can just jump in and not think too much about feeling lonely! Thanks for stopping by and for your encouragement.

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  13. Gorgeous, gorgeous watercolor feathers!
    Lovely post, too, about the changes and shifts we experience in our life.
    ♥♥♥
    Happy PPF!!
    Mary
    Mixed-Media Map Art

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    1. Thank you for continuing to stop by, Mary!

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  14. Beautiful. EnJOY the moments; you will have more sweet stories to share and more love than you can capture in those moments. A sweet time. I loved finding your blog through JRU. Blessings~

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    1. Thank you for taking the time to stop by, Leslie! Yes, I am looking forward to the stories getting sweeter and sweeter as we go.

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  15. That is a bittersweet time, but think of those lovely hours stretching out waiting to be filled with colour... and one of my favourite parts of the day is still picking up my Phantom from school and hearing about her day... seeing them come out of class happy and engaged is such a treat... and even though she is almost in her final year it is still great fun... ahhh the gossip, the news, the dramas... makes life great fun... you will love the next stage as much as you love this one...xx
    PS I love those watercolour feathers and can't wait to see what they become...xx

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    1. Thank you, Tracey. Sounds like I have so much to look forward to!

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  16. It is a big turning point for you and your family - the end of one chapter and on to the next exciting one. Your feathers are lovely and I look forward to seeing where they take you. Happy PPF

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    1. Thank you for reading, Marji! I can't wait to find out where my will take me either! :)

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  17. Your watercolor and collage works are always a joy to look at. Any change in one's life will always have its nervous bits. Embrace it, enjoy it as it is something we all go through. Cheers!

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    1. Thank you! Such wonderful encouragement!

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  18. Pretty work, but those hours will fly by faster than you will ever imagine!! Hope you get all you are dreaming of getting accomplished!! I was always shocked at how soon they get back from school!!

    Hugs Giggles

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    1. I hear that so often! I'm sure you are right but I hope that I can be happy to put down my paintbrush and rush off to pick them up from school!

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  19. Lovely work, and I really like your idea that it isn't "your time" yet, sort of takes the pressure off trying to cram it all in to limited time and feeling like something (generally the mama) gets short changed in the process.

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    1. You are exactly right, Carla! Anything to take the pressure off and slow down. Thank you.

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  20. What a bittersweet time it is. I'm awaiting my 3rd grandchild and going through all of that 'stuff' again. Beautiful life.

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    1. Oh how exciting! Praying your newest grandchild arrives happy and healthy!

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  21. lovely flowers! thanks for sharing about your process as well :D

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  22. Oh what a beautiful and sweet mama heart you have, Sadee. I love reading about your journey here on your blog. And seeing the beautiful art that goes along with that journey!!

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  23. are you speaking to me??? Seriously, these are the thoughts that have been stuck in my head and heart daily for a while now. Starting tomorrow, all is about to change, and my youngest is starting school, spreading her wings, so I can also spread mine!

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  24. Those watercolor feathers are beautiful! Stopping by from the Networking Blog Hop and now following along…I would love if you would stop by and say hello :)
    Modern Modest Beauty

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  25. What beautiful pictures...

    Stopping by from Thee Networking Blog hop! Love for you to stop by and return the follow. Hosting Mom's Monday Mingle. You are welcome to link up!

    www.thenaptimereview.com

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  26. Hi! I'm a new follower from the blog hop! Come over and visit me whenever you get a chance! :)

    CUTE blog! I love your banner image!

    xoxo ♥ Shar
    http://sharmartinez.blogspot.com

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  27. Your newest follower from the Monday Mingle.
    Anissa from Chasing Hailey
    http://chasinghailey.blogspot.com/

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  28. OH wow! You are so talented. Love it!

    Your blog is so cute. Love the colours and header.

    I am one of the co-hosts on the GFC hop. I came by to say hi and to follow. If you have a moment and would like to, you can visit me here The Things We Find Inside

    Thanks,
    Tami

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  29. new GFC follower. cute blog, friend. found u thru the naptime review GFC follower hop deal!

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  30. Hi Sadee! Made a comment and it disappeared!
    Sometimes we think the end is more important than the journey. We forget to savor what happens along the way! How much gold we miss! :-) patsy

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  31. can't wait to see what is ahead of you Sadee : )

    love and light

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